The Dating Conversation

It's been over a year. I'm getting out and about in the world. So, I thought it would only be right to post my thoughts on dating.

A. I'm going to be the best damn girlfriend/wife ever if I ever do start dating again, because I know how incredibly special and incredible love can be. I know not to argue or stress over the stupid stuff. Who cares about the dishes? Who cares about what television show got recorded? i know how love can be. I am going to rock as a girl friend/wife.

B. But because I am going to rock, he is going to have to be beyond rocking.
1. He is going to have to be the best looking, sexiest man out ever.
2. He is going to have to be ridiculously rich. I'm not going to worry about money anymore.
3. He's going to have to treat me like a princess
4. He will cook and clean. Or understand that I will not.
5. He has to love Jesus deeply, and understand being hurt and confused, but still have his feet planted firmly in his Faith.

Yep, if it ever happens, I'm going to be pretty selfish.

Honestly, though, if a boy ever approached me, I would have no idea what to do. Just like a little school girl. I talk a big game, but I would freak out in real life. I joked at work that all I wanted for my birthday was a gigolo, (being lonely and all) but if someone even held my hand in real life, I would probably start sobbing. Oh, I'm going to be an awesome date!

New Things

I tried to do something new or fun every night this week- went outside my comfort zone. The poor pups didn't get a walk at all this week, since I rolled into the house late every night.

Monday- Small group with singles

Tuesday- Charlotte One (loved it, but hated being alone, )

Wednesday- Zumba

Thursday-Coffee with an encouraging friend

Friday- Bobcats Basketball Game

Saturday- Widows Wear Stillettos Picnic in the Park

I love doing these things, but I hate them at the the same time. I hate that I have to be in a singles Bible Study now., but I love the people in it. I hate that I get to go to Charlotte One, but I love being there. I wish HeeJun was there to join me on the coffee dates (although, he would have never gone), I wish HeeJun was there at the Bobcats game. I wish HeeJ had enjoyed the picnic or met the incredible ladies in the group. But these things have come into my life, because he is not there. So, it's a vicious cycle, right?

No more shopping for me

I think I'm going to stick to online shopping again this year.

I've hit the "stage" where everything makes me cry.

• Little Asian babies.
• Trying on shoes. (HeeJ was an expert shoe-picker-outer)
• Couples holding hands.
• Firehouse Subs opening in Concord Mills.
• Fall Decorations
• Strollers

Yep, I'm that crazy lady crying in the store. Awesome.