I started the lawn mower all by myself today! I shouted a yippee when it happened and probably worried my neighbors. "That girl is going crazy."
I also dragged myself out of bed and made it to church. Still hard to hear "God is good". I find it hard to hear He is good to those who love him and you shall not want with Christ as your shepherd. I believe it. It's just hard to hear. I mean, this don't feel like too much good to me. And I want my husband back. Sometimes I want to stand up and say , "hey Pastor, what about this?" You're telling all these people how good and great and prosperous like is with Christ. Well, what about this? I probably get a lot of "that girl is crazy" looks.
Hotdogs for Dinner spent the Friday night with me. Man alive, I love having the sweet sound of kids in my house. Spending time with them made me want to pack up and move closer to my adorable God-daughter so I could see her more.
I also dragged myself out of bed and made it to church. Still hard to hear "God is good". I find it hard to hear He is good to those who love him and you shall not want with Christ as your shepherd. I believe it. It's just hard to hear. I mean, this don't feel like too much good to me. And I want my husband back. Sometimes I want to stand up and say , "hey Pastor, what about this?" You're telling all these people how good and great and prosperous like is with Christ. Well, what about this? I probably get a lot of "that girl is crazy" looks.
Hotdogs for Dinner spent the Friday night with me. Man alive, I love having the sweet sound of kids in my house. Spending time with them made me want to pack up and move closer to my adorable God-daughter so I could see her more.
I went to see The Hangover with co-workers. If you are offended easily, grossed out easily, or just try to flee from sinfulness, don't go see it. I laughed for hours afterwards.
Today I've been dancing it out (weekends are always rough and Sundays kick my butt) to Say Hey. My dog is giving me "that girl is crazy" looks. 
6 comments:
Not at the table Carlos... HA!
I couldn't help but think of how the sound of pitter patters *should* be a normal sound at your house...HUGS!!! Thanks again for spending time with us.
I am SO proud of you for starting the mower :) I saw you mowing...and you started it more than once!!! Whoever the cute baby was at your house...Indy was infatuated! He sat that and just stared out the window for hours.
"Crazy" is a relative term. :)
God really is good...
I promise that you will look back on your mourning and be able to see His fingerprints all over your life.
Trust me... I've been exactly where you are (and, yes, it does suck).
I have an award for you on my blog! :)
Found my way over here from Brittany's site. congrats on your award. :)
I can't even begin to imagine the pain of mourning the loss of your husband and best friend. I am so truly sorry.
It will get better...I can tell in just this quick visit that you are surrounded by people who love you....
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