Saturday, October 31, 2009


As hurt and confused and mad at God as I am, I acknowledge and thank Him for knowing what He was doing when He brought the West Cabbarrus ladies together.

We have been through some tough stuff. Really tough stuff together. They were there for me immediately when I needed them. Making sure I ate, making sure I slept, making sure I actually got dressed. Like a fellow blogger said, "I was a widow- baby" and needed them to mother me.

News came to me yesterday that another one of us is hurting. Her earth has been shaken.

I have had the earth shaking news. I know the feeling of your knees being kicked in and you can't breathe. Yet, I still found myself not being able to understand it. Not being able to wrap my brain around what was happening. I started saying the stupid cliches, "God has a plan". "I'll pray for you."" Think positive". I even said, "well, thank God this didn't happen when..."! I hated when people said to me, "thank God you are young or thank God you don't have kids."

It's amazing how even though I get it, I don't know what to do.


Brittany said...

Just love on her.

You know that there are NO words...
Cry with her.
Laugh with her.
Hold her hand when she is lonely.

Treat her the way you wished people had treated you.

BTW, I LOATHED people telling me how lucky was to not have kids!!! Really?! Lucky?! UGH!!!

I'm praying for you both. :)

Anonymous said...

I've been following your blog for a while - I lost my husband in an accident last year too, so I relate a lot to what you're going through. I have a really hard time believing there is a god looking out and planning what all will come in everyone's lives. The more I think about it, the less faith I have (and it's not like I started with a whole lot). There is lots of good in the world, but there is also so much hurt and pain and I don't understand how if "God is good", he would let this all happen. And yeah, I feel you on not knowing what to do. Just be there for the person and offer hugs and love.