Saturday, July 10, 2010

Life Sustainer IV



















Family.

I remember Mom worried about me shaking on the couch on that day.

I remember waking up and crying the day after. Mom and Brittany held me while I sobbed.

I remember Dad telling me stories of a hawk and a dog while I laid in bed trying to find my footing in the world. He kept me grounded.

I remember Dad making files upon files and helping me call every stupid company to figure out my life.

I remember Dad handing his credit card to the funeral director as the man asked me "and how are you going to pay for this".

I remember driving back and forth from Raleigh to Charlotte every weekend with them.

I remember Mom helping me pick out Juneau, because I couldn't make any decisions. Best dog ever!

They helped me gather my life together. They helped me sustain my life. They let me hurt, but also allowed me to laugh and play.

They were there for me the first few months. They are here for me now. As I am starting to "heal" and become a healthier and happier daughter and sister, they are still here for me, loving me, encouraging me, supporting me. Goodness, my sister even was brave enough to come move into this mess of my life!

I love them!!!!

I love them!!

5 comments:

amcneely said...

They are amazing, and so are you, my friend!

Amy E. said...

you should stop making me cry with these sweet blog posts. whew, so precious. i'm so thankful for your family and the ways they've helped you and loved you through these past few years.

Jennifer M Karn said...

OMG, I started balling as soon as I read "I remember Dad handing his credit card to the funeral director as the man asked me 'and how are you going to pay for this'."

My kids don't have their dad anymore.

I love your blog. I hope to meet you some day.

Steven and Candi Manning said...

So precious! What an awesome family:)

Heather said...

I also started crying when I read the part about your dad handing over his credit card.

Family is so important and I'm so glad yours is so supportive.