Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Being exhausted, but not able to sleep.

Comes with the widow territory.

Every night I watch tv until all the good shows are over. I dance around the room for a while, then I head to bed. No, I don't sleep. I check all my facebook friends' status'. I check all my blog friends' posts. I dread when I am done. When no one has posted anymore. When I actually have to put this crackberry down and turn off the light.

I used to go to sleep so easily. No, that's not true. I tossed and turned with HeeJ, but I did not dread sleeping.

I stay up too late every night. Every morning I have to drag myself out of bed because I am so tired and I have no energy. Every morning I say I'm going to bed earlier next time. Every night, I avoid sleep at all costs. That's what I'm doing right now, actually. On my crackberry, posting to no one.

So, thanks for your status updates and posts. Keep them up!

2 comments:

Brittany said...

I'm here! :)

I've always been a terrible sleeper! It is after 1 a.m. in Houston, and I am WIDE awake! Hello, insomnia!

Thank God (seriously) for Tivo to keep me company! And, the blessing to sleep in and work from home!

I hope you have restful, sweet dreams when the sleep comes.

Love ya, Friend!

womanNshadows said...

i am here as well. 3 AM and i'm still reading. sometimes up sewing. i'm sorry sleep is so hard for you as well. i have no answers. only when i was really sick and took the cold meds did i sleep and it was a drugged sleep. i hope there comes a day when we all do find a restful sleep.