Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Being exhausted, but not able to sleep.

Comes with the widow territory.

Every night I watch tv until all the good shows are over. I dance around the room for a while, then I head to bed. No, I don't sleep. I check all my facebook friends' status'. I check all my blog friends' posts. I dread when I am done. When no one has posted anymore. When I actually have to put this crackberry down and turn off the light.

I used to go to sleep so easily. No, that's not true. I tossed and turned with HeeJ, but I did not dread sleeping.

I stay up too late every night. Every morning I have to drag myself out of bed because I am so tired and I have no energy. Every morning I say I'm going to bed earlier next time. Every night, I avoid sleep at all costs. That's what I'm doing right now, actually. On my crackberry, posting to no one.

So, thanks for your status updates and posts. Keep them up!


Brittany said...

I'm here! :)

I've always been a terrible sleeper! It is after 1 a.m. in Houston, and I am WIDE awake! Hello, insomnia!

Thank God (seriously) for Tivo to keep me company! And, the blessing to sleep in and work from home!

I hope you have restful, sweet dreams when the sleep comes.

Love ya, Friend!

womanNshadows said...

i am here as well. 3 AM and i'm still reading. sometimes up sewing. i'm sorry sleep is so hard for you as well. i have no answers. only when i was really sick and took the cold meds did i sleep and it was a drugged sleep. i hope there comes a day when we all do find a restful sleep.