Monday, December 14, 2009


Check out this beautiful song. "Oh, darling, I wish you were here."

I had an intense day.

i addressed my (untrue) beliefs that my sin did this. That my disobedience to Christ's pressing that I should stop being so deceitful did this. That God is a punisher and a disciplinarian. Shame, Shame, Shame.

I read a lot about forgiveness, and repentance, and allowing Christ to fill me with his grace, and integrity.

I have a lot of intense homework to do this week.

"Though you have made me see troubles, many and bitter, you will restore my life again, from the depths of the earth you will again bring me up. you will increase my honor and comfort me once again"- Psalm 71:10


Brittany said...

Great scripture.
It certainly hits home!

You are working through some tough stuff. I'll be praying for you, Friend.


Steven and Candi Manning said...

What an amazing scripture. God is so faithful.

Supa Dupa Fresh said...

I should be writing you a million individual comments but I'm just not organized enough.
I have to testify: I recognize the signs that things are about to change for you, big time.
Your thoughts about dating are exactly like mine were: eager, but scared to crap.
You are trying on a new persona (holding parties).
You are trying new counseling. I LOVE that you are finding good Christian support; mostly I've heard bad things about them, you are clear on what works and doesn't work for you. I am glad to hear this because I know faith is such an important channel in healing!
(I'm a UU, so I'm pro-faith).

You just display, to me, the same type of maturity-while-still-growing that I felt at a time when I was really saying goodbye to the heavy grieving stuff.

We're not twins, but I thought you'd want to hear from a sister, that I hear the echoes.
Doesn't mean no more dark days. Doesn't mean you're losing his love.

Just, I think some time soon you are going to feel, all of a sudden, like you're on the other side of a door that you didn't quite notice opening.

I LOVE YOU and thanks for reminding me of what that raw, ready-to-move state felt like in your last bunch of posts. (the low parts are part of it. the whole cocktail of feelings is similar to what I went through).

I am excited for you and thinking of you! Will try to check in more often.