Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Curtains and Wii

I woke up the day after Christmas with the desire to put up curtains. My protective dog barks at every passing neighbor or dog, so I thought curtains would help decrease his barking. My incredible dad worked hard to put curtains up in the dining room and kitchen. What a great change, right? Wrong.

Then, my parents left. The house was empty. The curtains were closed. The world couldn't see me. I couldn't see the world outside. People won't know I'm still here. I'm alone. I lost my mind. I cried like i haven't cried in a while. Perhaps, they were tears that i had been holding in for a while/ I felt trapped and panicky. Then, suddenly I realized (Holy Spirit style) that it was the curtains. The curtains. Open the curtains, Erica. You are not alone.


Isn't it amazing how one little thing can set you in a tailspin?
it would be very easy to keep those curtains closed and to let myself drown in the panic and darkness. But I choose to open the curtains and let The Light in.
Oh, I also got a wii. Dude, HeeJun would have loved it. I chose to play Wii, instead of being sad that he isn't there to play it with me.

3 comments:

womanNshadows said...

i love your curtains. and a Wii. i am jealous. it looks like so much fun. i'd want to do the workout one - the obstacle course one i've seen on television. have fun with it in front of your open curtains.

Brittany said...

The curtains are beautiful... but, they DO look prettier open to let the Light in. :)

amy e. said...

have i told you that since i don't have access to Pandora at work that sometimes i just leave your blog site open and listen to your playlist? excellent song choices friend. and those curtains are definitely so pretty- i'm glad that you just opened them rather than following my advice and making them into dresses :)