Jealousy and sorrow

Two posts in an hour. I know. It can get a bit addicting blogging. A friend just sent me two blogs from the most amazing women, who happen to be young widows, too. Misery loves company and all. My heart breaks reading their posts. Some of the same words and prayers and cries to Jesus that I have felt. A slight bit of jealousy that they are both mothers, and expecting. What is wrong with me? How can I be jealous of another widow?!! C-razy.